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Kennesaw, Georgia, United States
My name is Billie, I am a 43 year old mother of two. I have been mostly losing the battle of the bulge for the past 20+ years, now I'm ready to lose it for good. Come along on my journey to beat the battle.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Phil 4:13

Saturday, October 3, 2009

In the beginning

This is going to be a story of journey to a healthy lifestyle. I want to accomplish this by the time I'm 45. They say that the weight you are at when you hit menopause is the weight you will remain the rest of your life. I hope this is not true, but do not want to take any chances, so I'm starting now to get rid of it.

I am 43 years old, I have a 22 year old daughter and a 17 year old son. I am divorced, and have a boyfriend, Shane. As you can imagine with a teenage son in the house it is nearly impossible to avoid all temptation, as they eat anything all the time. I try to keep all the junk food out of the house, but somehow it manages to sneak in somehow.

I am just like many of you out there, I have done every weight loss plan (Jenny Craig, Weight Watchers, etc...) I even had a personal trainer at one time, but nothing really worked. I would get discouraged when I hit the plateaus and just give it all up, gaining back the weight I had lost and then some.

I have been following my friend Tammy's blog and she is very inspirational and motivating.

I have decided at this point in my life I need to do something. I have aches and pains everywhere and I can't even walk up the driveway without running out of breath. So I have made the ultimate decision to start losing weight the right way. I started on September 21st, weighing 222 pounds. Now I know what everyone would be thinking at 5'1" that is just too much to weigh. I've always had the philosophy that I'm not overweight, I'm just under tall. But is that really a healthy way to think, not really. So here I am, starting over. The only thing different this time is I'm really going to do it this time, FOR GOOD.

I know what I need to do. I have always known what I need to do, just doing it is the hard part. I'm always making excuses for not doing it, too much going on, not enough time, you know all the excuses. I know what I am supposed to eat, but I don't, it's just easier to do the convenient thing. But this is all changing now.

I have been counting my calories, and am staying pretty well within my calorie limit of 1500. My kids say I'm obsessed with this calorie counting thing. I count every calorie, and list out everything, if we have to eat out, I have to pull out my iPhone and check my calorie counter to see what I can eat at a particular restaurant. Fast food has an astronomical amount of calories and sodium. But I make sure wherever we're going has something I can eat within my calorie range. My days of milkshakes and fast food burgers are over. Something that has really been hard to give up is Sweet Tea. It's a Southern staple with every meal and in between. When I went to Las Vegas I thought I was going to die because they do not have Sweet Tea. I have found that, out of habit, when we go into a restaurant I automatically order sweet tea when asked for my drink order. I am making more of an effort to just say water. I'm even trying to avoid diet drinks because that is added sodium. I have noticed that EVERYTHING has sodium in it, things you wouldn't imagine, like milk.

Since starting my dieting on September 21, I have lost 8.5 pounds, and really don't want to find it again. I still have not started exercising, because, of course, I have excuses. I have week knees, a torn tendon in my foot, I have plantar fasciitis (which keeps me from doing a lot on my feet), back pain, hip pain. My doctor says a lot of my problems would go away if I lose weight, but that's easier said than done. I am going to start exercising. I must exercise if I want to actually lose more and keep it off. I actually walked today, but it wasn't a steady walk. My boyfriend and I went to the Civil War reenactment, at Allatoona Pass, so we were walking the trails there, but there was a stop about every 5 minutes or so, so it wasn't a steady pace for 15 - 20 minutes. But hey I was moving, which is more than I do most days. Usually just getting out of bed is a feat all in itself.

I have read a lot of blogs and have decided this is a pretty good way of accountability. Even if no one reads it, I can look back and find out where I was and feel as if I was accountable to God and myself.

Life is all about change and I want this to be the best change of my life. Life is short, and I want to live it to the fullest. To do this I must be able to get there and not be short of breath.

Okay, I am going to publish my food journals and see what kind of feedback I get from that. So here is the one for today. I am under my calorie limit, so yea for me. I am doing good with my water, but sometimes still need something else. However, trying to just drink water. I try to eat fruit as my snack during the day, but have been so busy today that I haven't had any snacks.

Free Food Diary


1cupMilk, lowfat, fluid, 1% milkfat, with added vitamin A1022212107120138
1servingSpecial K w/Strawberries110000220251103
1servingSmoked Turkey Breast1452044115530329
2servingNatures Own Double Fiber Wheat Bread2003003804412610
1servingStouffer's Easy Express Broccoli & Beef35063251660572418
Water Tracker
This is all I will write for tonight. I was so excited to get my blog started, that it is way past my bedtime. So I will leave you with this thought...

Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement.

1 comment:

  1. Wow Billie!!! I love that final thought about fanning the flames....awesome! So glad you finally started your own blog. Thanks for following mine for so long. You're doing to do just great!! You'll learn as you go along how to get the most out of your calories so you can get plenty of food volume and aren't left feeling hungry. You'll also learn that eating 5 or 6x a day really gives your metabolism a kick in the butt! It's like Sean says...eating every few hours keeps the wood stove burning. Consistency is HUGE, so my advice to you is to keep it as close to 1500 every day as you can. This will make a big difference!! I was all over the map one week and only lost 1 lb. Sean told me to get consistent on the calories and the next week I kept it at 1500 every day...I lost 6 lbs that week!! You'll figure it out as you go...these are just some tips to help you get started off on the right foot. :)

    Tracking your food like this is a fantastic way to keep you aware and accountable...and the blogging every day is great for that, too. I'll spread the word that you've started a new blog and I'm sure some people will pop over to check it out!! I signed up as your first follower and now I'm headed over to my blog to add you to my bloglist!!