Do I Really Look Like That?

I watched the Biggest Loser last night, and I'm looking at them at the weigh in and some of them weigh what I weigh, and I'm saying to myself I don't look like that...but then who actually thinks they look as fat and flabby as they really do. And the sports bras and bicycle shorts...I wouldn't be caught outside my house, let alone on national tv, in my shape. AND...I don't think I would kill myself working out like they do, I mean really push, push, push then pass out??? I guess that's why I won't lose that big 8 or 16 pounds in a week. My daughter actually wanted us to try out for that show at one time, and I considered it for about...until I actually watched the show, and then no way am I going to punish myself like that.

So I say to myself...Is that really what I look like? and self says YES, yes you do look like that, and you need to do something about it. My self is always brutally honest...lol

Yesterday I worked out before work - 1 mile on the treadmill and 30 crunches. I'm pressed for time on my way to work, which is the reason I only do one mile.

Then I stopped again on my way home - only 2 miles on the treadmill and 15 minutes on the elliptical.

Today I did not work out - I took the day off from working out, but I'll be back at it in the morning.

My calorie count yesterday was good. I'm trying to work more into my menu, so I can at least get the 1500 calories for consistency. However, the past two mornings I have had a FiberOne blueberry muffin, which are very delicious. Now, I usually need a little more fiber, and usually fiber in foods don't work, but dang, those muffins worked and by the 1 hour ride home, I was regretting the fiber from today. Had to stop half way home, and thought I would not make it, but thankfully did.

Now I'm off to bed, tired today.

Quote of the day - and this is hit right at home, because of my little talk with self last night.

Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different that each of us is special.

I've Been Doing it all wrong

I had a very eye opening day today. I went to the gym for my fitness and nutrition consultation. I learned alot about me during this consult.

1. I can walk a mile on the treadmill at 3.5 mph in only 17 minutes and not die.

2. I am not eating enough calories. She says I need to be eating between 1650 and 1900. Dear Lord, how do you eat that many calories and lose weight. I'd have to eat 5 300 calorie meals a day and have 5 100 calorie snacks. I'm having a tough time getting in 1500 every day.

3. My BMI is 42.55% and it should be 22 to be healthy. (I knew this was not going to be good)

4. I have a poor heart rate. Walking a mile at 3.5 mph my heart rate was only 126 and it should be 141-150 to effectively burn calories.

5. Strength training really hurts. I guess it's not supposed to, but...when you haven't really done any in a long time, it hurts.

6. And the real shocker...I am obese. (Ok I already knew that too)

So it appears that the 2.5 miles I walk in an hour is really not that good. I thought I was burning calories, but apparently I am not. I thought the point was to eat less and move more, but I think I may have been wrong on that point also.

Now not to mention, mother nature is paying a visit, and I feel like crap and don't really feel like working out. But the fatty me would just stay in bed and use this as an excuse, but the skinny me will be pushing on and go and work out and do at least a mile at 3.5, then I may slow down a little, cuz I thought my leg was gonna fall off.

I have decided that when I get to the 10 pound lost marker - I am buying the armband for my IPhone so I have no more mishaps with the flying phone. So hopefully I am hitting the 10 pound mark this week.

			Free Calorie Counter my-calorie-counter.com
			Cal	Fat	Sat	Chl	Sod	Crb	Fib	Sug	Pro
Breakfast
1	cup	Milk, nonfat, fluid, with added vitamin A (fat free or skim)	83	0	0	5	103	12	0	12	8
1	serving	Oatmeal	150	3	1	0	0	27	4	1	5
			233	3	1	5	103	39	4	13	13
Lunch
1	serving	Weight Watchers Smart Ones - Angel Hair Marinara	230	4	1	0	640	40	4	7	9
			230	4	1	0	640	40	4	7	9
Dinner
1	Serving - 311 G	HEALTHY CHOICE DINNER - DINNER - CHICKEN PARMIGIANA 11 OZ BOX	320	9	3	20	600	40	6	10	20
			320	9	3	20	600	40	6	10	20
Snack
1	1 Container	Fiber One Vanilla Yogurt	50	0	0	0	55	13	5	4	3
1	Serving - 38 G	ORVILLE REDENBACHER'S - MICROWAVE POPCORN - SMART POP BUTTER 94% FAT FREE 3 OZ 3 PK BOX	110	2	0	0	360	26	6	0	4
1	cup	Grapes, red or green (European type, such as Thompson seedless), raw	104	0	0	0	3	27	1	23	1
			264	2	0	0	418	66	12	27	8
Water Tracker
Totals Target Balance			1047 1500 70 453	18 65 28 47	5 20 25 15	25 300 8 275	1761 2400 73 639	185 300 62 115	26 25 104 1	57 50 114 7	50 50 100 0
			Cal	Fat	Sat	Chl	Sod	Crb	Fib	Sug	Pro
Activity
Totals			0

Quote of the day - Acceptance is not submission; it is acknowledgement of the facts of a situation. Then deciding what you're going to do about it.

Check out my daughter's weight loss blog too.

She needs motivation and encouragement.

http://desperatelyseekingthin.blogspot.com/

Battle of the Bulge - Day 21

The weekend is always very busy for me, because I work all week and don't have time to do anything around the house. My boyfriend spends most weekends with me, so I am cooking for him, but he's pretty much conditioned to eating low fat, low calorie foods so he's good with that. If he wants something that's not necessarily healthy, I'll make it for him and I'll make me something else, but this really doesn't happen alot. Since I have started working out I get up make breakfast go work out while he catches up on his emails or whatever it is he's doing on his computer, then we get on with our day.

Today I worked out this morning, 2.5 miles on the treadmill and 30 crunches and then this afternoon my son wanted to go for a bike ride. Now I do not own a bike, so I walked. We went to the Allatoona Pass trail, the trail is out 1.25 miles and then back, for a total of 2.5 miles. Now I know why I do the treadmill at the gym, because I just wouldn't do that everyday. There are rocks that you step on and twist your ankle, mosquitoes, gnats, etc. I mean don't get me wrong I love nature, I just think nature does not love me. I am more for the modern conveniences.

I can really tell I've been working out in my legs and my back. So all in all for today I did 5 miles, I think it may be easier to do it at two different times, then it doesn't seem like it's all that much at once.

So Yay for the exercise part of my day.

My foods for the day, still staying under my calorie limit of 1500. So its just been an all around good day.

			Free Diet Log my-calorie-counter.com
			Cal	Fat	Sat	Chl	Sod	Crb	Fib	Sug	Pro
Breakfast
1	serving	Oatmeal	150	3	1	0	0	27	4	1	5
1	cup	Milk, nonfat, fluid, with added vitamin A (fat free or skim)	83	0	0	5	103	12	0	12	8
			233	3	1	5	103	39	4	13	13
Lunch
1	serving	Oven Roasted Turkey Breast	90	5	2	30	680	2	0	1	9
1	serving	Small Tortilla	100	3	1	0	290	16	1	1	3
1	serving	Swiss Cheese	110	9	0	30	130	0	0	0	8
0.5	serving	Raspberry Ginger Ale	70	0	0	0	30	19	0	19	0
			370	17	3	60	1130	37	1	21	20
Dinner
1	1 meal 10.5 oz	Healthy Choice® - Traditional Turkey Breasts - frozen entree	320	5	2	30	600	49	5	23	20
			320	5	2	30	600	49	5	23	20
Snack
1	Serving - 38 G	ORVILLE REDENBACHER'S - MICROWAVE POPCORN - SMART POP BUTTER 94% FAT FREE 3 OZ 3 PK BOX	110	2	0	0	360	26	6	0	4
1	1 Container	Fiber One Vanilla Yogurt	50	0	0	0	55	13	5	4	3
1	serving	Super Fruit Cup	70	0	0	0	10	18	2	14	1
			230	2	0	0	425	57	13	18	8
Water Tracker
Totals Target Balance			1153 1500 77 347	27 65 42 38	6 20 30 14	95 300 32 205	2258 2400 94 142	182 300 61 118	23 25 92 2	75 50 150 25	61 50 122 11
			Cal	Fat	Sat	Chl	Sod	Crb	Fib	Sug	Pro
Activity
Totals			0

Well it has been a long day, and I am so tired so I'm headed to the shower and then to bed. Don't forget to check out my daughter's blog (listed in my blog roll) No more Chunky Dunking time to Skinny Dip.

My quote - One of the greatest tragedies of the average person is the tendency to spend our whole lives perfecting our faults.

Battle of the Bulge - Day 20

I weigh in on Saturday, but did not blog yesterday, so the scale said 213, so I'm down .5 for this week or a total of 9 pounds. I didn't get to exercise yesterday, although I could have, I had many things to do around the house and then church. So I just didn't get there. I know just another excuse. However, I got up this morning, ate breakfast and went and worked out. Walked 2.5 miles on the treadmill and did 30 crunches.

I really must get an armband for my Ipod, as I'm walking on the treadmill today, really getting into the walking, great song, 35 minutes in - I snag the cord and my phone flies across the room. Luckily there was only one other person there so not much embarrassment, but it distracted from the rest of the workout.

I am also very excited that my daughter has started a blog also, "No more CHUNKY DUNKING, time to skinny dip!" so everybody go check her out and follow her, she needs the motivation.

That's all for now, got things to do, be back later with my calorie log.

Quote for day - When we dream alone, it is only a dream. But when we dream together, it is the beginning of a new reality.

Battle of the Bulge - Day 19

I did it...I actually got up early today and went to the gym before work. I walked a mile on the treadmill and did 5 minutes on the ellipitical. Then after work I stopped there on my way home and walked a mile and a half and did 10 minutes on the ellipitical. Now I'm pooped.

I must say that I love my boyfriend so much. He is so encouraging. He doesn't tell me that he loves me just the way I am and I don't need to lose weight, but he doesn't tell me I don't either. He just cheers me on with my endeavors. I think this is the reason I would lose and gain back before, I never had anyone who just cheered me on. They either told me I didn't need to lose weight or they criticized me. I am very happy in my relationship and I think that really helps me with my daily weight loss. We had talked about me working out in the mornings before I go to work, and he said I should probably work up to it. But this morning I got up 30 minutes earlier and just did it. I was so excited I had to text him as soon as I got done, and he said "Cool, you go babe". I just love him.

I did good with my calories today. I haven't figured them all up yet, but I made the best jambalya tonight. I used brown rice instead of white and used turkey kiebasa instead of beef. The boyfriend loved it.

I weigh in tomorrow, so we'll see if the day of exercise burned enough calories to have a loss.

Quote for the day - If you don't know what you want, you won't recognize it when you get it.

I DID IT !!! I DID IT !!!

I did it, today I joined the gym. I joined a 24 hour gym so I have no excuses not to go. It's a month to month, no contract membership, so if things go awry with my job, I can still get out of it. Which was a big concern to me right now. My job that is, because our company is being sold and no jobs are guaranteed.

I will start tomorrow on my way home with at least walking on the treadmill and doing some elliptical. Ideally I would like to stop on my way to work and on my way home, but I don't know if I can actually do that. We'll see how it goes, but I think I should start slow and work my way up. I haven't actually done any physical exertion in probably 4 years.

I did have a comment on my earlier blog about working out at home. Thank you for your comment, however, that's just not me. I really don't have a lot of room, and I have a teenage son who thinks its very funny to see mom flailing around the house alleging it is a workout, so I just wouldn't do it. I have all the videos, the balls, the stretching bands, just can't bring myself to do it.

My calories are still good, and I feel with the added exercise I will be able to succeed.

My Food Journal -

			Free Diet Tracker my-calorie-counter.com
			Cal	Fat	Sat	Chl	Sod	Crb	Fib	Sug	Pro
Breakfast
1	cup, quartered or chopped	Apples, raw, with skin	65	0	0	0	1	17	3	13	0
1	serving	Oatmeal	150	3	1	0	0	27	4	1	5
1	cup	Milk, nonfat, fluid, with added vitamin A (fat free or skim)	83	0	0	5	103	12	0	12	8
			298	3	1	5	104	56	7	26	13
Lunch
1	serving	Lean Cuisine Baja-Style Chicken Quesadilla	280	8	3	20	690	34	8	3	18
			280	8	3	20	690	34	8	3	18
Dinner
1	serving	Moe's Naked Triple Lindy	525	22	12	120	1205	37	15	2	38
			525	22	12	120	1205	37	15	2	38
Snack
1	cup	Grapes, red or green (European type, such as Thompson seedless), raw	104	0	0	0	3	27	1	23	1
			104	0	0	0	3	27	1	23	1
Water Tracker
Totals Target Balance			1207 1500 80 293	33 65 51 32	16 20 80 4	145 300 48 155	2002 2400 83 398	154 300 51 146	31 25 124 6	54 50 108 4	70 50 140 20
			Cal	Fat	Sat	Chl	Sod	Crb	Fib	Sug	Pro
Activity
Totals			0

My Quote for the day - Most of the critical things in life, which become the starting points of human destiny, are little things.